Taking a moment to try and focus on the positives of how I’m feeling right now. I find it too easy to get bogged down in the negatives…. to whinge… and feel sorry for myself. I get so fed up with feeling tired and kind of “meh”. About having to make choices about what to do so I don’t regret it the rest of the week. But I decided I need to try and pull myself out of a bit, its too easy to wallow, and I find it even harder in winter so I wanted to do a post to try and highlight to myself how far I have come in the last year!!
This time last year I was a little baldy….. recovering after a round of intensive chemo. All my treatments and major infections finished in March/April this year. After my fungal infection I was so rough, and I’m still amazed that I made it through that as well as I did. And further to that I can’t believe how far I have come since then.
I’m now back at work 3 days a week, almost full days now my fatigue and concentration levels are improving. I’m teaching a yoga class and loving it, I’ve found a new joy for teaching yoga and feel like I’m really teaching from my heart rather than just delivering a class plan. I’m getting out with the dogs on the days I’m not working, enjoying the fresh air and joy they give to me (think I would have lost my sanity without my boys!). I’m managing to drag myself out to do the odd bit of socialising (something I still need to work on!!). I’m getting back into the gym throwing a few weights around now and then. Heck, I even managed to run a 28 minute 5km the other week!! How many of my social media friends can do that and their bodies haven’t been through the trauma of fighting blood cancer god knows how many blooming times!! Ha ha!!
The body is a truly amazing thing. But even more so is the mind! Sometimes I think if it wasn’t for cancer I don’t think I would push my body as hard as i do. But I have such a huge drive to keep my body fit and healthy so I feel good, improve my fatigue levels and of course prepare myself for the next battle whenever it hits me!
Mini health update: I’m doing really well…. blood levels are fab…. I’m even having venesections to reduce my iron (ferritin) levels in my blood. I had a virus/coldy thing the other week and I managed to fight it off with no hospital intervention too!! Wednesday I’m having some pain relief injections around my spine to try an reduce my pain levels in my lower back, so fingers crossed that will do some good. The following week I’m actually doing some of my “late effects” tests. Getting my bone density checked, my lung function, and all my hormone levels checked out. I also want to ask about achy joints, as I’ve noticed at night my shoulders, hips and of course back grumble a bit. So will be a long day, but I’ve got drinks to look forward to in the evening with my old work crew from Aimia!! 🙂