But why don’t I feel happier?!?! I even feel a bit guilty that I don’t feel as happy as I should! Almost feels like a bit of an anticlimax. It is fantastic news that I’ve got the funding and now I’ve got a chance to survive, however the prospect of going through transplant again is terrifying!!! I expected to be much happier than this, but I think its now made the idea of treatment all a bit more real. The other scary thought is that this is probably my last shot at beating this horrid disease and getting back to good health.
The doctors will be discussing my case on tuesday and then it will be the hunt for a bone marrow donor.
So now I’ve got to prep myself for the intensive chemo and then the months of recovery……. but hopefully it will all be worth it and in 2016 I will be coming back fighting!!!
On a different note (and because I know she will be disappointed to not be part of my blog) I let the newly qualified nurse Stella have a go at stabbing me today. Only her second time taking blood and she got me to bleed first time, very impressed. Hoping this makes up for the amount I’ve been winding her up over the last few weeks!!! ah ha ha!!
Chemo wise its day 3 so I had my second bag of daunorubicin and I am starting to feel the effects. After a walk outside I was feel nauseous and really tired, but overall I’m still doing really well. Been tugging at my hair too and it seems to be staying put for the time being!! ha ha